My Lord God

I have no idea where I am going.

I do not see the road ahead of me.

I cannot know for certain where it will end.

Nor do I really know myself,

and the fact that I think I am following

your will does not mean

that I am actually doing so.

But I believe that my desire to please you

does in fact please you.

And I hope that I have that desire

in all that I am doing.

I hope that I will never do anything

apart from that desire.

And I know that if I do this

you will lead me by the right road

though I may know nothing about it.

Therefore will I trust you always

though I may seem to be lost

and in the shadow of death.

I will not fear,

for you are ever with me,

and you will never leave me

to face my perils alone.

- Thomas Merton (1915-1968)

Sometimes I will choose to not act and do something because I am afraid of the outcome, be it good or bad. What's worse than that, sometimes I'll choose not to do things because I fear that someone will think that I’m strange, or I’m just scared I’ll fuck it up and look stupid. Fear can appear to be overwhelming sometimes, but it doesn't have to be debilitating if you're open and honest with yourself and others about it. Once it's out in the open, it doesn't seem like such a big deal. Once you reach that point, it's a lot easier to just say... fuck it.